Darkness creeping in

You know how you feel right before you pass out? You get tunnel vision...blackness creeping in from the corners of your eyes and closing in fast...stomach feels like you just went swooping down the first big hill on the rollercoaster...you're lightheaded like you stood up too fast after sitting all day...That's how I'm feeling right now, only worse. I feel like someone just kicked me in the gut, then pointed and laughed at me as I fell on the ground. Now they're kicking dirt in my face.

Vin, I have so many questions, I don't even know where to start. But let me ask you the most important one of all. WHY?