I'm OK

I'm okay. I just haven't been blogging.

I've decided that I'm probably too chicken to do porn.

I have forgiven Vin. He has moved to St. Louis with his wife and kids. We have set a goal of being together in one year's time. That's how long he figures he'll need to save up enough money to get a divorce and still be comfortable, and that's how long I'm locked into my current lease anyway. We are learning the intricacies of a long distance relationship. So far, it hasn't been fun. I haven't fully adjusted to all of this.

Though I haven't been writing, much has been on my mind. I have no doubts that I want to be with Vin, and no doubts that this relationship is worth persuing. The hard part hasn't been how I feel, but how everyone else sees it and feels about it. Which is more of an annoyance than a problem, really. Because although I care about what my friends and family have to say about my life, I by no means live by what they think I should be doing. Concern is nice, and appreciated. Telling me how to run my life and what to do with it will get you kicked to the curb.

I recently got to have some playful fun with my female friend that I occasionally get to hook up with - I'll give her a name and write about that very soon. This blog needs a giant pick-me-up, and a nice sex story might just do the trick.

Kisses all around.