The rumors of my death have been highly exaggerated

Tons to say, but haven't felt like writing. Or something. Fuck, I don't know.

The following observation was pointed out to me recently:

"A guy who's married not only does not love you, but he also doesn't love his wife and himself. And you need to love yourself enough not to be involved with that."

Is that it? I don't love myself enough?

Well that's one perspective I hadn't really put much consideration into.

I don't think there is a person on earth more incapable of making a decision about something and sticking to it than me.

This sucks.