The Past: 2/13/07
As promised, entries from my handwritten journal. The title represents the date I originally wrote what I'm posting now.
2/13/07
Sometimes I feel like I might start crying and never stop.
I am so sad Vin is gone. I'm hurt and angry and sad and I miss him every day. It hurts me on a crazy-deep level. I feel sometimes as if his suicide was a reflection on me not being good enough. If I had just been a better friend, a better girlfriend (back when we were dating), smarter, prettier...a better person...maybe...
I am learning that ther are things I take too personally. More personally than is appropriate or necessary. It's hard to learn to see it differently, but I know I need to - I know I should. Or I may not survive this.
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2/13/07
Sometimes I feel like I might start crying and never stop.
I am so sad Vin is gone. I'm hurt and angry and sad and I miss him every day. It hurts me on a crazy-deep level. I feel sometimes as if his suicide was a reflection on me not being good enough. If I had just been a better friend, a better girlfriend (back when we were dating), smarter, prettier...a better person...maybe...
I am learning that ther are things I take too personally. More personally than is appropriate or necessary. It's hard to learn to see it differently, but I know I need to - I know I should. Or I may not survive this.
posted by AmyVegas at
2/11/2008 04:41:00 PM
